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I was excited to turn 40, originally, i planned to throw a disco party...but it turns the other way around....I spent this day in it's most humble way, woke up at 5:45 A.M. to fix the girls' breakfast and let them be ready for school as early as 7:00 A.M. attended to Raha's need - we played in bed, fed him and let him sleep again at 8:00 A.M. took a nap that turns to a deep sleep - Raha and I woke up around 10:30 11:00 A.M. prepared lunch watched Please be Careful with my heart 12:00 noon, started doing the laundry 4:00 P.M. visited my father in-law in the hospital 5:30 P.M. fetched the girls and bought some dinner In between these times, i utter prayers to Lord....thanking Him for the gift of life.

Dearest Raha, It's been a year....and time is really flying so fast...I really do not know what to say...coz until now, I do not know how to thank God for the "blessing" He have given us. It was after 9 years that I have felt the same feeling when I first got hold of your Ate Tala and Ate Mayumi... .feeling you inside me (and you made it sure that I felt you though you were such so tiny then)  was just magical! hearing your cry was just so fantastic (as if it was a sweet melody)... ......feeling you wanting my breast was so lovely..... and it was that feeling that I was longing for 9 years! Your Tatay, Ate Tala, Ate Mayumi  and I didn't ask the Lord for someone......we prayed, I prayed.....thanking Him for another opportunity of bringing into this world a blessing from Him....whether you are a he or she, doesn't matter, I told Him. When my doctor told me  that you're a boy...I cried...because I knew then, that you

3 more days and my Raha will be surely so happy!

.....November has always been my merriest month....and it doubled my excitement because of  my little boy's  upcominig 1st Birthday...I have been planning this since the day he got out of my womb.....and I really really wanted this birthday so extra special.....Problem is --- I am so occupied with work.....looking at my calendar, I only have a month to prepare for this event.... So, sanity, please come unto me.

....been a while since I post from this page...there are thoughts running on my mind right now...I guess this is the best time to blog it out. first thought - BER is here....ohh yesss! i can feel the pressure but I have managed to take control of it... second thought - my baby boy is turning into a little man so fast....ohhh, how time flies....I wish to spend more time with him...I am in the midst of wanting to be a stay at home mom....but....yes...there is a big BUT...will it be practical? oh come on, we all know that life nowadays are not easy...having 2 pre-teens and a baby is something I should be thinking over and over and over ----- missing my being a hands on mom :( third thought - November is just a few months away --- and it is our big day! the happiest month for the family, why? it is our birthday month! Tala will be turning 11, Mayumi will be 10, Raha will be 1 and me, 40? and that is why thoughts are running on my mind.... 40, here I come!