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HaPpY bIrThDaY aTe TaLa! When I first came to know that I am holding you, no words can explain what i felt As days and months passed by I know changes will come my way.... When i first saw you and held you close to me, tears fell.....coz on that day, I know I can give love without hesitations.... My dear Ate Tala, I love you so much.... you have changed me a lot and you have taught me that FAMILY IS THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD! YOU ARE A SPECIAL GIFT FROM GOD.....

...yes i am!....some of my friends were asking what is this status in my facebook all about....and my reply....it's all about being us....being you...being me... Isn't it a miracle that sometimes we laugh cry? Isn't it a miracle that sometimes we feel happy and sad? Isn't it a miracle that sometimes we feel so strong and we feel pain? Isn't it a miracle that we are able to care and hate? Isn't it a miracle that we are able to love....and get hurt.....let go....and.....love again? Only you and I can be touched by these miracles......and I thank God for having these feelings....that only my heart and soul can understand..... Be touched.

...shocked with my eldest, tala, yesterday.....I dont know what to say and feel....ehhh...errr...more likely i was lost. My kids slept at my in-laws house last saturday night and went home yesterday afternoon. "our conversation: NANAY: hi tala, aren't u going to kiss me? TALA: (not responding) NANAY: tala, did u eat lunch? TALA: (still not responding) NANAY: tala, i miss u.sino katabi mo natulog? TALA: NAY, PLS I DONT WANT TO TALK.i dont want to say a thing..i need space.(she went to sofa and sleep).. ME...SO SHOCKED...at 8 yrs old! may moment anak ko! huh!... With this...i need to talk to a developmental pedia if these things are just but natural for an 8 yr old.....hubby on the other hand, find it cute....me....i dunno...hahahaha.....as if i was looking in a mirror.....that was very me..... I can see myself in her.i hope she makes a better version of me!

..Up by this time.....kids are with my in-laws....hooked by the net.....cant stop to browse something that will interest me..... for this day 11/08/2009....i will be a house maker.....tons of house chores for me.....will be having a homestay (again) from SSEAYAP on the 13th...so i need to prepare the room for our foster daughters....i asked for a japanese and singaporean girls this time...... morning morning everyone.....i will be off to bed now....coz my dreams are out there looking for me...... blessed Sunday.....

...that's what we usually say.....but not for me...ah! ah! i have work tomorrow! cant say no because we have tons and tons of work to finish..... cant say TGIF.....but can shout.....SABADO NAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! MWAH! have a good life everyone!

Oh yes.....i claim to have a good morning for this brand new day......just what i have hoped for yesterday......will be visiting this blog....everyday.....as i can (crossed fingers). A few more days i will be adding up years into my life.....that's probably why i have feeling of emptiness/lowliness....i guess that is but natural,right? Anyways, i will be heading to the office in a little while.....i hope to take a peek again with you.... Have a Good Friday morning.....everyone! God bless!

...compiled......yes! indeed!....sorry for not updating my site for almost 2 and a half months?....so lots of things to do....busy with so many things..... today, i feel so low....and i dunno why.....so while lying on the bed and staring nowhere....i came to realize why dont i turn this feeling of emptiness into writing.....and whoooaaaa.....i suddenly remember.....i have a friend here......my blog site! somehow, it made me smile......instead of being so senti...instead of being affected by not so important things and feelings that's making me feel low.....i guess....and i hope...that i will be back to blogging....... welcome me......again to my site....